As I had contemplated the 200th post mark for The Political Game, I had many ideas in mind as to how I might celebrate the occasion. Little did I know the last two weeks of my life would be so chaotic and the outcome would wear so heavily on me, dampening that celebratory spirit I had anticipated.
Lately in my life I've been confronted by significant accusations, setbacks, and honestly, brick walls. As I began the semester I quickly learned how trying my fall schedule would be and I also began to realize what a dead end the History program at Idaho State is for me. Over time I've come to miss a dear friendship and miss an amazing teacher. And most of all I've really began to question if anyone really knows me at all.
After an article I wrote in the Idaho State Bengal for the College Democrats, a group of which I am a part, on the topic of education in the state of Idaho, I took some pretty harsh criticism on campus and off for being both too outspoken on the issue and by some, including my own mother, too passive. Passive I am not. If anyone questions how I feel about education or wonders where I stand I would remind them that I have in several instances voiced my support for higher education, funding of education in general, and have praised teachers as I've seen fit that have made an impact on my life as well as countless student's lives. The Campus Debate: Education, Mehr Licht, Senate Passes Bill on Tuition, Lessons of Spring & Richard Stallings, Methods of Higher Education, and Methods of Higher Education II, to name only a few, have clearly represented my feelings, support, and advocacy of education at large.
Since February I have had my mind set on attaining a position on the ASISU Supreme Court (the judicial branch in student government at ISU). Since February it has been quite the battle. Last Friday I finally interviewed for the position and still have heard nothing on a decision. I have taken heat from every direction on this issue, have been told that I don't know anything about the judicial branch of government, nor do I respect it, and that I have been "plotting" against the ASISU president. I not only endorsed the current ASISU student body president on this blog, I called him a great guy. I have also in posts such as One Nation Under God, Inherently Unequal, Roberts Confirmed..., and in the Rehnquist series of the first part of September demonstrated my admiration, understanding, and respect for the United States Supreme Court.
And far more importantly, there are those who don't know at all what I believe, what I have faith in, who I am, and who I am not. Adultery in America, ...On a Personal Note, Ray Charles and the Week That Changed My Life, and A Non-Political Philosophy are straight-up what I feel, what I believe, who I am.
I guess after the long two weeks I've had fighting all these battles that aren't necessary I'm not at all surprised at the fact that I am questioning whether or not blogging has been productive or just a monumental waste of my time. And after 200 posts of putting my opinion out there, opening up to my readers, and admitting my more than obsession with the life and death of our 35th president, I have realized today that I feel it has been a monumental waste of my time. Hopefully, this too shall pass.