Caspar Weinberger died today. Why am I mentioning this on a liberal blog? Because for the last several days I have been completely disillusioned with this blog. I am so tired of it being labeled strictly a "liberal" blog when it is to me, so much more. This is the place where I can say Caspar Weinberger died and without some immense amount of liberal cynicism. I can say that the former Chairman of the Federal Trade Commission, Director of the Office of Management and Budget and Secretary of both the old Department of Health, Education and Welfare and Department of Defense died today for the sake of history, not simply for the sake of politics.
I set myself up for this. I titled my blog "The Political Game" and should have expected that the politics would come quickly and without hesitation. But the title is essentially more about history than it is about politics. The title does afterall refer to one of my favorite quotes from President Kennedy and refers to a period of history that holds a special place in my heart. It refers to chess, President Bartlet on The West Wing, and so much more.
Blogging is an enormous responsibility at times. I have to be factual at times, calm at times, and there are times I have to stifle my liberal anger. There are days when I can't post the meaningless song lyrics I would like to and there are days when I can only post on strictly news-related matters for fear of divulging far too much information about my personal life. Blogging is an attempt at juggling, when I don't know how to juggle. It is a responsibility that I don't often have time for. It is an aspect of my life that I once wanted to quit and recently have thought countless times about quitting. This blog has been an outlet so many times and yet today, even with the death of Caspar Weinberger, a topic I couldn't even begin to discuss with my 20-year old college friends, it is a great irritation. I get irritated with myself, irritated with a lack of comments, and irritated with the routine of it all.
Sunday night I couldn't explain how much I love Leo and hate to see him leave The West Wing even though I know it has to happen and how much I admire CJ because she is a beautifully brilliant woman with an amazing job. I couldn't go into detail why I think I am the most like Toby. An episode of my favorite show and I didn't dare touch it. There is something missing these days and so if I was going anywhere with this it was to the place where I tell you all that I need a break.